Brain Stew

There comes a time,

In life, when death,

Is thoughtfully,

Thoroughly considered.

Sometimes it is the taking,

Of another's or your own,

Sometimes its from thinking,

You're old or all alone.

And when the time,

Of ponder is at hand,

Do we sit and take it?

Or do we make a stand?

Ofttimes I wonder,

With my prophetic mind,

What the future holds,

Try to determine mine.

The stand I take,

Though hard and long,

The choice I make,

Is it right or wrong?

Thick and thin,

Old and new,

What should I think,

When I think of you?

I like to dream,

Of better days,

When all our trouble,

Will go away.

And then I stop,

And fully see,

Exactly what's,

Become of me.

A dreamer?

A thinker?

A persistent man?

Is that what I really am?

So for today,

And maybe tomorrow,

I will sit here,

In my sorrow.

But don't you think,

Not for one minute!

That when the time comes,

That I'll regret it!

If it weren't for me,

Writing these words,

My harbored thoughts,

Would not be heard.

And so I'll sit,

And here I'll stay,

To write and ponder,

Another day.

Save your sympathy,

Save your grief,

Keep the symphony,

Playing by the wreath.

For on that day,

When I am gone,

I want to hear,

A happy song.

A song about flowers,

That grow so high,

And a girl with stars,

Right in her eyes.

Because in my dreams,

That's what I see,

And when I awake,

She's not with me.

My dear, where did you go?

It seems as if you disappeared,

Like footprints under fallen snow,

Almost exactly as I feared.

The moral of the story,

I write for you this day,

Is not cause for worry,

So please do not dismay.

Only do I wonder,

And only do I think,

What does the future hold for me?

I hope it doesn't stink!

Hope you all enjoyed that little tour of my mind... I've been stuck in my head all day and I needed to get it out somehow. For some reason, poetry seems to say what I can't. On a lighter note!!!

My new job is going swimmingly! Had a great first week in the field, made 3 sales, learned a LOT, and met some pretty cool people. I got kicked out of an entire town by the police, almost got eaten by a dog, AND... I doubled my "normal" weekly earnings. Not too shabby for not knowing what I'm doing! So needless to say, I'll be back on Monday.

(Once I start rhyming, it's really hard for me to stop. Sorry, it's kinda like an addiction.

"Hi, I'm Jim."

' Hi Jim!'

"And I'm addicted to rhyming."

'Thanks for sharing, Jim, don't you feel soooo much better about yourself?'

"No, actually, I don't. But thanks for asking."

Doesn't the saying your name thing take the anonymous out of it? Or is that just me?)

Sorry, little bit of a tangent there... Anyways, it sounds like my laundry is ready to come out of the dryer. I better start ironing. Ugh... Leave me some comments. And tell your friends to follow me. Thanks! :)

Diary Entry

You know that feeling in your chest? Like there's something on fire in there, yet at the same time it feels like someone has their hand wrapped around your heart, and they're squeezing it, but your heart is still pounding? Yeah... I love that feeling! People tend to call this 'nerves' or 'being nervous', but really it's the release of adrenaline and other fun chemicals your body produces. I call it being excited, it's a cup-half-full thing... I can't go into too much detail, but let's just say things are working out quite nicely. A positive mindset has a VERY powerful impact on your future. Trust me.

Today is the culmination of 10 years of work. It feels the same as every other day that led up to this point, which is a little surprising, I thought it would be different. I think I'm finding more comfort in things staying relatively the same, acknowledging this change would just make it all the more awkward. I'm extremely grateful for everything I've learned and experienced, and for the many relationships I've formed as a result. However, the time has come to move on, and this next step should help me get a lot closer to my goal. (That goal is to have my own business and become financially independent. It's not too much to ask.)

As far as the guinea pig thing goes, I figured out last night that if you just give them a piece of apple they stop squeaking! Who knew? TQ did. Turns out he does more than just lurk on the blogosphere, he actually knows something! Incredible...

Make sure to check back tomorrow, I'll have some more 'concrete' details, and hopefully more good news and a few funny stories!

Me being me

I promise I will not talk about politics or current events at all in this post. Unless something slips, and then just know it was unintentional. I'm taking a break from ranting, and instead focusing on storytelling for a bit. I feel that this will be more benefitial to all 4.75 people who regularly read my blog, according to a recent Shmogbee Poll survey. The only thing I really find disturbing about these poll results is that, somewhere out there is 75% of a person. How the heck does THAT happen?!
Now, I'm honored that "Three Quarters" is out there somewhere, intently hanging off my every word. However, until now I had no idea he was there! So after much thought and careful focus group polling, I have decided to cater more to Three Quarters, or TQ as I will refer to him in the future, in an effort to make him feel more like one of us "wholers". If you have a problem with this new strategy, take it up with my agent. Yes, I do have an agent. And she may or may not be my mother. I'm trying to maintain my plausible deniability here, incase of any future legal trouble, as per the advice of said agent, who from here on out shall be known as Secret Agent, because no one really knows... for sure.
Recently, my life has been going fairly well. Probably a bit better than TQ's, but that's why I'm here, to prove myself wrong and make TQ feel like he can muster up that extra 25%. This is all for you buddy! And don't you forget it...
You see, things in my hometown are pretty slow, and up until recently I thought I'd just ride it out. While I was lazilly perusing the web the other day I stumbled upon an ad that would change my life forever. I knew this, because it literally said, "This ad WILL change your life FOREVER". So I made the call. I find out Thursday whether or not ads can be trusted.
AND THEN there was this girl. She's cute, seems pretty cool, ya know, my kinda girl, right? As in, I could totally see myself making this work. Silly me, I always forget how much women and guinea pigs have in common. (DON'T SHOOT ME YET!!! Wait 'til you read this one...) You see guinea pigs like to make cute little noises, almost like they're talking to you, except you can't understand them. This is the first similarity. They also like to be touched, given attention, and enjoy little 'gifts', like food and toys. That is, until they flip out and run away because all the things they like are just soooo much fun they can't take it anymore. This is the kind of logic that keeps me up at night. It's also the kind of logic that keeps me single. I can't quite figure out why...
Anyways, TQ, I do have a point to this story, or at least I did a minute ago... Where'd - OH! - Here it is! I have a feeling there are some drastic changes about to happen in my life. I'm hoping these are good changes, but in today's world you just never really know anymore. In the past few days I've felt everything from 'Oh my God my world is going to come crashing down' to 'FINALLY! Everything is coming together EXACTLY how it should!'. Then I wake up to the real world, late for work again. And since Secret Agent is sick, it can be a bit difficult, not to mention expensive, to get her world-class advice.
In all seriousness: 10 years of learning, struggling, adapting, growing and settling could all be gone in the blink of an eye. 2 years of soul searching, self discovery, and learning could finally pay off. Or I could be here a week from now, with everything the same as it has been. I'm really ready for the next step, whatever it ends up being.